Too injured to walk to you

In my arrogance, I went a little too far,
I held the hand of the stranger,
He stabbed me right in the middle,
now I am somewhere in the forest and its a little too dark,
I don’t know the way back home,
The bushes are too thick and the wind is cold,
where every single person passes by,
I am unable to speak of the pain,
trying to hold the heart that is leaking,
the blood exudes continuously without a pause,
my hand fails to stop the dripping blood,
I wonder which way to go and get it stitched,
This time I am too injured to walk to you,
So I sit there patiently and wait for the dawn to creep,
Can you please come and bring me home?
– I am sorry.

Why should we help others?

“Don’t be a go-to person for someone, whom you can’t go-to” Initially, when i read this quote i felt like yes, i agree to this. Later life proved me, it’s wrong. here’s why:

Sometimes we all have that one person in life who is there constantly asking for help and guidance. Always needing favors, you might interpret them as energy drainers or what not!

Or the other scenario is, you might find yourself helping others most of the times and you question yourself, why me? why do i have to listen to rant of others all the time! why do people approach me only when they need help? Why do i have to play the role of an unpaid therapist?

Listen, i want you to understand this that whatever you are doing for others, don’t you expect that the same people will return your favors.Some remember you and most forget you.If you expect the same people to return your deeds, you are mistaken my dear! Then? Why? Why should you help others?

Reason is Nature! Nature is keeping record of all the good deeds you are doing.Its not going for waste. They are like a bank deposit where you save your good deeds and nature returns them to you when you’re at your bad. Helping others doesn’t guarantee that those same people will help you. Its like doing a deed or sending a basket full of roses in a river and then nature returns those petals one by one whenever its needed.

Sometimes you feel like you don’t need anyone. you feel like you are self sufficient.But always imagine how would you feel if you were in the shoes of a person whose asking help from you, how would you have felt? Let me tell you that you don’t know what the next page of your life book holds, because every sun that rises, sets at the end of the day! So be kind to others. Remember what goes around, comes around!

Loads of love. Do let me know what you think about this!

Dedicating this to all those people who helped me in my bad times and made me a believer of kindness. Have faith! ❤

Residing in hell.

Have you ever felt that the life itself feels like a punishment? Daily chores become a burden for you? All you want is a PERMANENT ESCAPE from your daily grind. Like you are in such a toxic environment where you can’t avoid it?

Where you wish that you had a magic lamp or wand and can once in all change the environment and get rid of this nasty aura and these selfish people.

Let me quote a life incident of my own.There was a time in my life when i just gave up.The famous school which i was attending was totally opposite of what i dreamed of. The friends i had were all not my type of people but still i couldn’t distance myself from them. I was always late in classes. bunking some, sleeping in some or scrolling Instagram in some.My scores were falling.Teachers were unhappy, calling me after class,asking me what’s wrong with me? not doing my assignments, not returning library books on time.

Furthermore coming home after school, locking myself in room, after lunch and tea i would listen to some sad piano on YouTube until i fall asleep in the same room. and after dinner i would sleep again. Mostly i was using sleep as a source of avoidance.

Soon i realized that my whole life is falling apart. and that is where i analyzed situation critically and did something i am still thankful to myself.

I started getting up early, doing workout, making my own breakfast, enjoying my meal with some light tv-series and then properly dressed to school with some new hairstyles. I started writing lectures. left the shitty company of people who were no longer serving me, i started using class breaks more effectively, doing all my assignments and home work. Started asking questions, coming home, i started having lunch and dinner on dining table. Stopped caffeine intake. Started making hobbies for myself like learning guitar and graphic designing. Searched for events in my city, attended them with mom.and then journalling effectively and sleeping on time.

OUT COME: My health started improving. I was no longer drowsy in classes. My focus and attention span got increased. I got a part time job as a content writer through LinkedIn.My grades started improving.Brighter students started to approach me in school for helping them in their assignments.My friends circle expanded.I became more happy than i was pretending on my Instagram feed.

HOW? Now the major question arises what happened that suddenly changed my actions and hence the outcome. it was all A SINGLE THOUGHT i realized that this is a life that has been given to me. I have made some mistakes and now there is this whole debris of regrets on my shoulders.There was NO light at the end of this tunnel at that moment. No option to exit. I had to spend 2 years of my life no matter how much i cry or try, but now the choice was in my hands, whether i could spend those two years of my life sitting there, wailing on the couch, doing absolutely nothing OR i could take charge of my happiness because even though i couldn’t change my school but i was able to make small changes in my lifestyle and that lead to a happy time.

See, sometimes the hell we are in is unavoidable. We have to live there no matter what. Now you have to find some light in this darkness. Do something. One step at a time and i promise you the fires of hell will stop burning you.

Oh me?

Hi, My name is Myda Beyg. A 20 years old middle class girl with big dreams.

We all have so many unanswered questions, undiscussed issues , unsaid words , unresolved conflicts which little by little drain our energy and our enthusiasm.

Lets discuss them all here and destroy obstacles before obstacles destroy us.

Sending a lot of positive vibes to the one who is reading! 🙂